Confessions of a Blogging Mom...

I vowed to post everyday and I WILL...I just may have to resort to posting on stupid things.  Bare with me people.

The other night Belle and I decided to take Spencer for a walk and stop at the park for a bit.  As we were walking we saw a "Lost Dog" poster.  I was curious and stopped to look at it...completely forgetting that my kid can read.  Anyways, the poster was actually for a little dog that was stolen from it's own front yard.  I wasn't going to tell Belle that's what happened but as I said earlier, the kid can read.  She got all sad and was asking me questions about why someone would steal a dog, etc.  I told her I didn't know why.  She decided "bad people" did it...the same bad people who broke into Daddy's truck and the same ones who broke her light up deer.  I just kind of listened and nodded.  She was quiet for awhile and then said "I bet the bad guys' Master wanted a puppy."  I tried not to laugh...it was so cute ans innocent.  Apparently she's been watching too much TV.  I love the mind of a child!

What is your favorite day trip to take? Bonus points if you show us a picture.

The Zoo!  I know, kind of pathetic and cheesey, but I love the zoo...and so does my kid!  And it's a great way to spend a day!

Since I have promised about 8 times to get on here more often, but have not, I have decided to give myself a penance for sinning against the Vox community (cuz I'm sure you're all just dying to read more about me...ha)...I will be doing the QotD everyday (or at least 4/5 times per week cuz some questions are really dumb) until I have gotten myself back on a routine of being on here.  As much as I LOVE Facebook, it just doesn't get my venting and thoughts out as much as this.  So, actually, I need Vox...and I need to get on here more.

So...here we go!

What do you tend to worry about in the middle of the night?

Anyone who knows me at all will tell you that I worry about EVERYTHING (my Gramps used to tell me that I worried about what to worry about)...and the middle of the night is when my mind seems to always want to solve all the stupid things I worry about.  So...what do I worry about in the middle of the night?  It tends to vary...sometimes it's money problems, sometimes it's work issues, sometimes it's the whole baby thing, sometimes it's something with Belle, something with Brandon or something with my family.  But...there's always something to worry about.  If only I could shut off my brain at night...or at least teach it to worry at like 1 in the afternoon or something instead!  LOL

Oh well! :)

As much as I like to ignore it and pretend it isn't happening...it is:  my baby is growing up!  It has become increasingly evident in the past couple weeks:

She learned how to tie her shoes.  She never had much interest in learning so I never pushed it.  Then one night she was bored so her Daddy, kiddingly said, "Why don't you learn to tie your shoes?".  I think she took it as a challenge...because within 20 minutes she had it mastered.

She lost her 1st tooth.  It had been wiggly for what seemed like forever.  I really didn't think it was coming out anytime soon.  But it just kept getting looser and looser.  Then one day she decided it needed to come out THAT DAY.  And by later that afternoon, it was out.  And she had pulled it all my herself!  She looks so damn cute with her tooth gap!  Looks like such a big kid!!

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She graduated from Kindergarten!  A 1st grader...my baby is going to be a 1st grader!  That just doesn't seem right!  I mean, 1st graders are such big kids!  She was JUST a baby...I swear!   

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She's been doing so many big kid things...nothing huge just little things that show her independence and maturity. 

  My baby is no longer a baby. 

Belle had her dance recital this weekend and I'm just finally recovered! :)  She had rehearsal on Fri. night, 1st recital Saturday at 6pm and 2nd recital Sunday at 2pm!  That's a lot of hair curling!   But she did awesome and I know it is something she absolutely LOVES doing!  She's a whole different kid on stage!  No shyness, no fears...she is wild and crazy and definitely loves to play it up for the crowd!  I asked her if seeing all the people in the audience makes her nervous and she said "No, I like it!"!  So different from me!

Here are some pics of her!

Here are the links to the videos of her dancing too!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z1opI4C8hrI (she's the 3rd one back)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MRI4Xtjnz4Q  (she's the one farthest to the right) 

I know this is late but I have been flippin' busy...

Anyways, I had such a great Mother's Day!  I got woken up to Belle whispering "Happy Mother's day, Mommy!"...and then got told that she and Brandon were making me breakfast...scrambled eggs, toast, hashbrowns, bacon and orange juice!  Yummy!  Then I got to open my presents.  Belle had gotten me a "foot spa"...one of those little foot bath things.  Her and I love to do pedicures so it was the perfect present!  Now we don't have to fill a big bowl with warm water!  :)  And Brandon got me a gift certificate to the salon I get my hair done at...for an hour long massage and a facial!  I was completely blown away!  Such thoughtful and sweet gifts!

I had to work in the afternoon but I love my flower job so it wasn't so bad.  And so many moms were in shopping for flowers or kids buying flowers for mom!

Then I got home and Brandon made burgers on the grill...my favorite meal!  Yummy! 

What a great day!  :)

What's the worst part about your job?

Having to constantly be "on".  To keep the attention of my little ones, I need to bubbly and full of energy almost the entire time.  Even when I don't feel well or have something on my mind or am having a rough day, I need to still be upbeat for them.  Sure, I let them know if I'm bummed or sick but at the same time, they just don't focus on me unless I'm upbeat and bubbly (all teachers are actors at heart).  The hardest days to teach are when my mind is elsewhere.  If my mind isn't 100% on my job, my teaching suffers.  But at the same time, it's kind of nice to put life behind me for 6 hours a day. 

I started my flower mart job this past Thursday...and I really like it so far!  It's so relaxing and calm and the people I work with are super nice.  And most people that come in to buy flowers are in super good moods...I mean, who can be crabby surrounded by flowers (unless you're allergic I suppose)?

The only draw back is I feel so flippin' busy!  It's not all the 2nd job though.  Life always gets crazy this time of the year!  At school, at home...it's just nuts!  Tonight is truly the 1st night I've had since Wed. to just sit and do nothing...but that was after a VERy busy weekend! 

But I think it'll be fine. I just have to get used to a busy spring/summer...especially compared to the boring winter we had!  I just don't want Belle to feel slighted at all!  I'm trying really hard to spend some really good quality time with her when I'm home.

And now, if you'll excuse me...I'm going to sit on my ass, have a drink and watch some stupid shows on TV! :)

3:  number of years we've been trying for baby #2

2:  number of years we've been trying with help from doctor's for baby #2

36:  months I've been disappointed to not be pregnant

2:  doctors I've seen that were sure they could get me pregnant

1:  little girl who really, really wants to be a big sister

800:  amount of $ spent on my surgery that was supposed to "fix" my problem

1500:  amount of $ spent on other medical "procedures" to try to get pregnant

30+ (no lie):  number of babies born to friends and family since we have been trying

7+: years apart my children will be (this drives me nuts)

1:  couple who is unsure where to go from here

5 (at the most):  people who will still listen to me talk about this after 3 years (it's dwindling rapidly)

too many too count:  people who either ignore my "problem", deny it or act annoyed with it

1:  woman who desperately wants a baby but feel very, very hopeless

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